A Whole NEW Year

2010 is gone and 2011 has started. 2011 was a very rollercoaster year for me. I broke up with someone i thought i was going to marry (which i now realize was for all the wrong reasons) I found an incredible job with amazing people. I FINALLY got my dream car. I then, not expecting, found my prince, MARRIED him and then, on Christmas, found out i am expecting a baby. All within 12 months. I think that's more excitment in one year than i had in the past 5 years. I've had alot of loss within the past two years, but i have also gained so much.
"Friends" have come and gone. It's funny how when you need to find yourself, and in the process means, rethink some religious things, your "church" friends are the first to leave, first to talk about you, and first to run to you when they want to hear the lastest scoop. HMM.. I will say, it's not all my church friends, some have actually stuck with me, still care and love me, and to those few, thank you.
The realtionship with my mom was rocked, but i think after actually sticking up for myself, we are great. Me and my dad also grew closer. Which all made me realize how much i have to take care of when they are gone. It's all on me. My sister asked me to adopt the kids. How i wish i could. That i had the money to. But i don't, not yet. But i know i will. and i am so grateful for my amazing husband, that will do all of this with me, no questions asked.  He is truly amazing.
I want this year to be amazing. and 98% of that will rely on me. I have all the works layed out. my path is clear, and i have the most amazing people by my side holding my hand, people in heaven looking down on me, and a great GOD leading me.
I have someone else to think about, not just Robbie, but a baby growing in me and depending on me for it's health, for it's life. that TERIFIES me. I want this to happen. This is my second pregnancy. The first eneded after 6 weeks, in a miscarriage. I sit here and shake as i write this becasue it'll never go away, i lost a baby. And i am so scared for this one but trying all i can to make this happen.
So the few that will actually read this, please please pray and keep this baby in those prayers.

on a lighter note...

I hope for you all a great year. Don't make resolutions, just strive to be a little better every day. Let love replace hate, and always remember to watch your words with all you come across, because you don't know the battle they are fighting.


Adios, Y vaya con Dios,
Crystal Gibb